Do you have any questions?

 

प्रश्नः, प्रश्न, 'கேள்விചോദ്യം (chodyam), 'Prashna' -ప్రశ్న, প্রশ্ন, प्रश्नः, प्रश्न,ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆ(Praśne), પ્રશ્ન, سوال (sawal) - just a question!

If questions are sharp arrows or the powerful Astras let loose from the quiver, I am the archer stringing them and shooting them with glee one by one on those facing them in an examination!

Yes, as a teacher, I frame my questions with a lot of enthusiasm and with certain objectives , but I am not responsible for the metaphor ascribed to me! I don't think of myself as a warrior to fight and vanquish my enemies.

However, there is this interesting yet an embarrassing depiction of me that used to circulate among the students who had to face my question paper. It was sometimes deliberately picturised in this way by my colleagues; a device to make the students get serious and study! (It appeared so!). I used to feel the side of my head to see if I had grown horns and surreptitiously move my tongue within my mouth to feel if any tooth has grown longer! For, in the (supposedly) playful comments of my colleagues, in their tone and the words left unsaid, I could see myself as one asura/monster!

Ah... but this brought more questions - to eliminate doubts/ to seek clarity/to solve a problem/to 'agree to disagree' with clarity and to show (humbly, of course) that I have some knowledge on the subject (of how to frame assessment and evaluation questions)!

Am I not challenging the young minds to think, analyse and look at a problem/issue from different angles? My questions, I think, don't burden the students to practice cramming multitude of facts in their memory bank!

I am not throwing open the platform for a debate about that! (I am afraid there may be many students and fellow teachers waiting there to pounce on me!! Why take an unnecessary risk!)

"Why is that squirrel squeaking so urgently?

How will the clear blue sky appear now to someone far away across the ocean?

Why do these two men fight in the street?

What does that monkey feel when that man forces him to do back flips and somersaults innumerable times?"

These and countless other questions used to crowd my brain and clamour for my attention when I was a young girl.

I have moved through different places, different time and context and lived different experiences but the questions continue- different ones though!

So, when I have to put together questions to continuously assess and evaluate the learning levels and of course to reflect on my teaching, I was guided by intuition and my understanding of where I expect students to be at the end of this teaching.

I sincerely continue this pattern with the 'teachers-to-be' whom I train. Their reaction/response? " They have never come across such questions until now in their life!!" They need extra time to read and comprehend the questions."

But I see a sharpness in their expression and a bright excited look in their eyes that tell me that they love the challenge, rather their brain cells are charged with a new surge of energy!

What do you think? Do I hear a question from you?


A season for colours, scents and to more promises!

 As I keep observing, I sense a keen awareness within me about the environment. I am attuned to the subtle change in the texture of soil under my feet or the sudden shift in the air that surrounds me. That is when I notice and bond with
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all my brethren in my ecosystem; I smile and laugh when I can sense their joy in the new dawn; I sway gently to myself when I see the leaves , the birds and flowers dance to welcome spring. Perhaps, I am looking for the spring blossoms unconsciously that everywhere I look there is this magnificent array of colours. When I walk under the cluster of neem trees, I inhale deeply the sweet scent of the small white flowers. The memories of association to the smell, flash those happy days of youth in my mind's screen. 

I chance upon an ad by Singapore Airlines - 'Sound of Singapore Airlines', A symphony of flowers'. The tagline itself is musical! Consider the words the ad uses: "If flowers could speak, how would they sound?"; " Taking the voices of ten native flowers..." Honouring their 'Batik art and the design on the Sarong Kebaya of the cabin crew, they have brought a modern version of Batik art and the signature music is soft and just engulfs you in warm soft breeze and subtle scents. 

This along with the pictures of all the colourful blooms that I receive from friends influence my kolam art. I am no expert in bringing alive the sounds of flowers with colours! This is my impression and dedicate this piece of writing to all the remarkable ladies of Sangamitra and particularly to my friend, Sudha. 


I am sharing my kolam here, but this space among the women of Sangamitra for sharing Kolam belongs to Sudha, I know.  It is just an offering to the universe for letting me connect with you all! 


From Vasanth to Grishma to Varsha....

The ancient tradition of this land recognised six stages/phases in the annual cycle of weather changes. The classical literature of the sub continent celebrates nature in all its aspects - the scorching Sun is as glorious as the balmy colourful spring or the cool air of the Hemant (autumn). 

 The flora and fauna enhanced the narration of the human emotions; the keen observation of every being around them brought the appreciation that they were part of the whole creation; and all the animals, birds, trees, flowers, the air, earth and the rain were their kinsfolk; each being loved to live in harmony with all other beings. This idea may sound highly romantic or idealistic, but this is my perspective when I read and enjoy these classical creations. 

In the past, I had never noticed the onset of Spring or the season of Vasanth keenly as the larger part of the year is hot here. We are located well within the tropics and close to the Equator. But now, I feel and experience every small change in the flow and speed of the wind. Each slight shift in the supporting and holding feel of the earth beneath my feet reverberates in a sharp manner. I am able to recognise how even a small blade of grass, the creeping centipede, and the rustling leaves of the Peepal tree standing close to my balcony, get ready to receive the changes in the air around them. 



The plants and trees shoot new leaves, and flowers bloom in riot of colour all around me. There is a subtle lilt to the chirping of the birds. The bird songs are like the singing of the singer, who has suddenly found her confidence and shed her shyness. 
     
The pictures that friends share of their gardens have enhanced  this awareness. After I see these, so many thoughts associated with seasons emerge in my mind. I keep thinking of the descriptions of seasons and different time of the day in Sangam literature (Tamizh). The collection of poems from the broad period between 3rd century BCE to 350 CE is known as Sangam literature. We get to know a lot of the socio-cultural life of the people inhabiting present day Tamil Nadu and Kerala. The poems depicting human emotions, mainly love, were composed in the backdrop of five kinds of terrain - mountains, forest or wooded land, arid land, plains mainly given to agricultural activities and sea and coastal areas. The narration of these stories used the flora and fauna of the region as symbols to hint upon the emotions. 
Each verse - four lines or six lines - is a complete short film with 2 or 3 frames. There is no one word or syllable that is redundant. One poet compares the leaves of Nochi(நொச்சி) (Chinese chaste tree) to the feet of peacock and the soft falling of the colourful cluster of flowers (glowing like sapphires) during night. The point of focus here is the keen sense of alertness with which the lady and her friend (सखी) were waiting to hear from the lover.
( I thank Palaniyappan Vairam Sarathy for this detail from his blog 'Karka..Nirka', a blog on Tamizh literature.)
When my mind is filled with thoughts of seasons and the natural rhythms, this one word, like a refrain, hits my ears in waves. So I pause and listen... Ritusmaharam' is the word and the 'Barahmasa miniature paintings flash before my eyes. 
The tradition of closely drawing from natural events and objects to describe human stories and emotions was a widely prevalent practice all over this subcontinent. Ritusamharam is a beautiful poetic

creation of 'Kavi Kalidasa in Sanskrit. It roughly translates as 'Medley of seasons' or 'Garland of seasons'. The poem is divided into six main chapters- each chapter assigned to one season.  Yes, the literary tradition mentions six seasons - north or south.   
(Kālidāsa was a Classical Sanskrit author who is often considered ancient India's greatest playwright and dramatist. Many of us have heard of the names of his famous works like 'Abhijnanashakuntalam', Raghuvamsam and vikramorvashiyam , I hope.) 

  The equivalent six seasons in Tamizh were  known as 'Ilavenil' ( இளவேனில்), 'Mudhuvenil' ( முதுவேனில்) , Kaar (கார்), Kulir(குளிர்), munpani (முன் பனி) and  Pinpani (பின் பனி) respectively. 
Coming back to Kalidasa, one of the greatest magic weavers with words, this work is considered one of his most lively creations. Each of the seasons is described as a pair of lovers experiencing changes in their relations, as the changing seasons of India. The poem starts with summer. In this time of extreme heat, one gets joy through mangoes and the cool moonlit nights. There is a description of how young women try to entice their men. Satyam Jayati's translation interprets the opening lines which speak of summer thus:
"Now is the time of heat! A raging sun
Burns through the day, till pleasant night
Cool and refreshing spreads its sable veil.
The sleeping surface of the limpid pools
Is oft disturbed by plunging bathers, faint
With heat, with amorous dalliance tired."

With powerful imagery the poet brings forces of nature like the scorching sun, streaming rain, frosty and biting cold, the dark moisture-laden clouds, rivers overflowing and rushing to the sea and the numerous variety of birds and animals. 

Barah indicates number 12 and 'masa' is month. Barahmasa miniatures depict the cycle of seasons through the 12 months and its deep impact on the lovelorn heart. As someone remarked it is  poetry meeting art. 
Now comes the question - " But where do we see six seasons? We, in this land of monsoon , can easily recognise only three changes - from summer to monsoon to winter. 


In cooler places, we can see the onset of spring, that we do not normally recognise in the south. "
Each small shift in the pattern has been observed, experienced and narrated by our ancestors; they aesthetically and practically divided the 12 months into six seasons of two months each. Every being in the diverse ecosystem is able to feel it, attune itself to the changing rhythm and shift in the environment. (But, sadly, we have lost that ability to feel deeply and intensely, I think.)

Thanks to all my friends (particularly the dynamic 'Sangamitra' and exuberant Girijeswari) who pause to observe the celebrations in nature and share it with me - the burst of colours and the shiny tender leaves, the chirping birds, blue sky and fluttering butterflies.


















                                                                                                       
                                                                                                                      











Within & Without

 She is the link between one thought and the other; she is the conduit through which my senses connect to the life outside. She remains still in the moment yet flows from one day into another, filling my time and space. She was an amazing woman who nurtured me, loved me, pushed me, admonished me , made fun of me and she was there in all my difficult times and is still there when I am at the crossroads.

That is my grandmother. I remember the moment, when I clearly communicated my preference to stay with her rather than go with my parents to another place. What could have prompted that four year old to move away from the love of parents to live with the grandparents?

I could have been attracted by the big house filled with people with some interesting activity going on almost always, the legendary cooking skills of my Patti (grand -mom) or her sensory rich story telling;  but there was a pull/connection that was beyond the power of words between her and myself. 

Abiding by the traditions of the period (the 1930s) she was married off just as she was entering her teens. She had not seen her husband before the marriage. Her in-laws family was a big joint family with a typical patriarchal structure. 

When she had to be formally invited and brought into her newly acquired home, there were demands for diamond earpieces and nose stud. The usual negotiations, the voiceless husband who placed obedience to elders and the patriarch as the highest attribute and the uncertain waiting period had all created a deep impact on the 16 year old young woman. She was blessed to be surrounded by brave and wise women and particularly her aunt (wife of father's elder brother - (काकी/ பெரியம்மா) who taught her to recognise her self worth and how to hit a home run when life threw her a curveball. She had an analytical mind and was gifted with a photographic memory. She was so methodical, great at planning the little details and rational in her approach to people and events. Her photographic memory and the sharp brain enhanced her story-telling sessions. 

(How I loved the dark nights with the sounds of the city slowly winding down, the only voice used to be Patti's. Lying next to her on both sides, my brother and myself used to demand that she faced us while narrating the war between Rama and Ravana or the childhood exploits of Krishna. She used to deal with the sibling rivalry, with an innate sense of humour.)

I have lost count of the number of times she has narrated the story of her aunt, giving a great declaration to the patriarchs of the family, and the elder and junior mother-in-laws -" She is no more our daughter but your daughter-in-law. We have given all that we can as wealth to support her. This very same young woman that you now look down upon, will be your nurturer and you all will be looking up to her in the coming years." I remember patti telling me how this great grand mother advised her to stand firm yet show love and respect to all of them as they were to be her people. 




She never lost her cool when her husband completely ignored her for days together. Her self confidence and conviction in what is right turned him around and all the elders - not only her in-laws but even thatha's (grand father ) uncle and aunt, who were looked after by her in their old age. With the passage of time, the patriarch of the household, the uncle used to come and ask her opinion on many issues, I have heard . 



She was tall for her generation of women and was always neatly turned out in her nine yards saree. Even after cooking a feast for about 50 people, she would remain fresh with no hair out of place. Her management, financial skills and planning were amazing! She never compromised on the daily rules and disciplinary routine till the end but that did not cause trouble to others. There was no blind faith and rituals in her life and she had beautifully sketched the nuances and layers of each of the festivals we used to celebrate at home. 

Her classy and subdued style of dressing up had its appeal to the third generation too. My elder daughter, during her marriage, insisted on patti's supervision of her hair do and dressing up.    

There was never a moment in her life when she could heave a sigh and feel relieved of her difficulties. Her only son (my mama) had a developmental disorder (with hindsight, we make a guess it could be autism spectrum disorder) and her daughter (my mother) was physically not a very healthy person and had occasional depressions as well. She had to confront the people at home to consider medical help for her son. Without awareness about these conditions, people lacked sensitivity and empathy to deal with such disorders. she managed to find her own procedures to engage her son and let him grow in his own pace. She very well knew that worrying about what would happen to him after she was dead and gone was futile. None of these challenges hampered her zest for life. Her quest for knowledge, sharp wit, narrative skills and that sense of humour earned respect and affection from the people around her. 

Every where I turn around, every work that I do; the way I deal with people - in every small and big event, I feel her presence and I hear her voice. Many times during a day, I bring her alive as I talk about her to whoever is there with me. Many times, I am alone, listening to her as she would have been saying something and doing something. The past and the present blur; she is within, yet out there engulfing me with one assuring glance...

My first hero to model on was her and I realise she still remains someone I can draw inspiration from.

Do you have any questions?

  प्रश्नः,  प्रश्न , 'கேள்வி ,  ചോദ്യം (chodyam), 'Prashna' - ప్రశ్న, প্রশ্ন, प्रश्नः,  प्रश्न , ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆ( Praśne ), પ્રશ્ન, سوا...